Straight Talk From My Spirit Guides

OK, I get it!

I meditate. Not as often as my higher self and my spirit guides would like because that’s when we chat, but when I do, it’s often very productive. I have a habit of listening to a favorite OM guided meditation and it takes me a good 30 minutes to really drop the insane devotion my mind has to my left brain.

At the end of the session, I begin to write in my meditation journal…random thoughts or questions but definitely musings that are coming from my own mind. Then with such effortless subtlety, the words begin to change, and I can tell they are not my words. I know this because I could never come up with the wisdom that comes through. I also know this because I’ve learned over the years that there is a difference in the speed with which thought is formed in my mind. When it’s me, I wouldn’t say it’s exactly laborious but I’m forming ideas, thinking about concepts and creating a coherent thought (maybe) at a much slower pace. When it’s my two children, Nicole and Ryan responding, my higher self or my guides, the thought is just THERE in my brain in a nanosecond.

I have had some stunning signs from my children and amazing metaphysical experiences unrelated to their passing. I am very clear that they are alive in spirit form and living whatever life that looks like, in whatever energy level they inhabit. And bizarre as this seems (I’ll save the full story for another post) I had a third child who passed who is already back here in the world of form.

All of this has made me a bit of an anomaly when speaking about and helping other parents with child loss. I do not call myself a bereaved parent because I’m not. I am full of gratitude for the time I had with my deceased children and I miss them like crazy, but I have also embraced the beauty that this life is still presenting to me, and I am not bogged down in a life of desolation and sadness. Because of this I can be unusually straight forward and uncompromising about my experience with child loss and the truths I know. Yet, I’m also aware that I must be sensitive and empathetic because not everyone is at that point. I well remember those days too and I began to worry a bit about being too “out there”, especially as I was beginning to be more public with what I felt compelled to share.

And so, it was during a session not long ago, I posed a question to my guides, and it was this:

“Do I need to be less of me?”

In the fastest response I’d ever received and with what felt in my mind like slightly incredulous bemusement, I heard instantly,

“How many more children do you need to lose before you realize this is what you’re supposed to do?”

It was such an in my face response that I laughed and felt a bit sheepish, as if I’d just been scolded.

So, here I am on Substack, with so much more to tell. My hope is that beyond just showing that life continues and there truly is no “death”, that anyone who has suffered a deep loss of any kind will be encouraged to embrace life and know that there is still much joy to experience. I’m here to listen too, because that is always the very first step in healing.

I love you, courageous fellow sojourners.

Marla

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